||Sunday, January 06, 2008||
i am not good. | 1/06/2008 07:44:00 PM
me?no where near being fine.i am not good.not fine.
things really sucks.they're wrong.and i've done all i could.i've been trying.even trying not to do anything,afraid that doing too much seems trying too hard. i am not good. i cant even tear now. i do not have the strength and i need it,to move on. so if u hear me lord, help me.
sometimes,it really makes me wonder.am i happier than i was before? does he really ever care..does he need me in his life at all..is this how he defines love,which is so different, soo very different from the others. am i or will i ever be important to somebody, somebody i really love? why am i always facing all these. i deserve every ounce of attention he can give, but he's not giving any at all.perhaps a little more than an ounce. i deserve love, the rightful treatment of a girlfriend, the unconditional care and concern just like how much i put in for him.
i really love him, unquestionable. But does he? an absolute mystery.
Rica.
it'spartytime,baby
||Saturday, November 17, 2007||
bittersweet | 11/17/2007 05:14:00 PM
dont you find it amazing how a blog catches all that kinda wonderful feeling and keeps it there forever when u enter an entry? i got reminded of the bittersweet memories of the last few entries i've posted..bitter and sweet indeed..
nothing is as magical as reading ur diary... it rekindles an old flame in your heart...
i remembered how we used to love,though it wasnt even long enough for me to forget...and i still love u the same way and even more..
it feels special when we're in love..
it is magical..when i witness our growth in faith n love for one another..
Rica.
it'spartytime,baby
||Friday, September 21, 2007||
cheers to class politics! again. | 9/21/2007 08:39:00 PM
Hey all the cool and the not-so-cool crowd out there!I'm back. back back back.yes, my ass is right here.down here once and yet again!=) BIG HELLO FOLKS,dudes,bros,sisters,whatever. urgh. =T
anyways, looks like it's a pretty freezing war out there huh? people shunning each other and avoiding or they claim they are not but they are....and so on. But people, just like what justin sang about,what goes around comes around, babesssss.u know what i mean,right? Well, after all,we've been friends,u know,been thru the kinda thick n thin parts of our life in that damned f*cked up school. so,why forget bout the love we used to have. why do this to each other. This isn't a fun thing to do? i still wanna meet all of them up every now and then and i really wish i don't have to do the same thing twice just to cater to two groups of ppl who were actually very great friends before anything has happen,u know what i mean??????
love's the shit people..dont ever forget bout the love..
written somewhere in september..
Rica.
it'spartytime,baby
||Thursday, May 03, 2007||
can you feel me now.... | 5/03/2007 01:34:00 AM
Ooohhh...i'm so busy so busy so busy.....
But i love my life being soo overly-occupied.(okay,i dont even think that's an english word but whatever.)
Hmmm,with another space in my world being filled up.My life becomes fuller again.
Perhaps,i'm finally completed.Perhaps,i've found the last peice of my puzzle.At least,i hope so.
=)
'' What did you say.... I know I saw you saying it... My ears won't stop ringing... Long enough to hear... Those sweet words... What did you say.... And now the day... The hour hand has spun... Before the night is done... I just have to hear... Those sweet words... Spoken like a melody..."-----------Norah Jones,Those Sweet Words.
Rica.
it'spartytime,baby
||Monday, April 30, 2007||
| 4/30/2007 06:09:00 PM
I LOVE YOU TOO!!!!!---------RICA
Rica.
it'spartytime,baby
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| 4/30/2007 06:03:00 PM
i luv erica!!!!!!!!!----KDY.
Rica.
it'spartytime,baby
||Saturday, April 28, 2007||
my love life is no where near the end............ | 4/28/2007 11:05:00 AM
I wish i have a mountain to climb on,so i can shout "i love you" on it. So i can declare my love for you to the world ...in just 3 simple words. --------to the one i love,rica.
To the people whom i've not told, yes, i'm attached. The reason i've not really DECLARED the fact that i have a boyfriend is because i dont want unwanted attention. I know i'm not a celebrity or what, but friends would tend to pop up abruptly n ask me questions about us which i dont even intend to answer. Well, i'm just gonna make a brief introduction here and that's it. I'm getting on with life with him and u guys gotta find out who he really is when u get to see him yourself. =)
Alright,here it comes.He's 1.86. (yes,he's tall.i know. =D) He's thin and a lil dark cos he's in the navy right now.He's 20. n most of all HE'S NICE.SWEET.GREAT.FABULOUS.whatever.i dont care. He's just sooooooooooooooooo good to me.n yes,i love him. *grins* *grins very hard* *grins even harder*........yay!
Well, for those who were wondering how we met.hmmm, it's kinda funny how we've met. SERIOUSLY. believe me,you'll never believe it. OKAY, we met in a club. well,not just any club,but phuture. *LAUGHS* we were hard core grinding each other (well,maybe not so hardcore...) and we exchanged nos. after that. that's how we know each other. Details.call me.=) i'm not gonna pour out any more info here anymore. so call me if u wanna know more.Buzz me,whatever. =)
i finally updated.
Rica.
it'spartytime,baby
||Friday, April 13, 2007||
Love's not about giving in,it's bout losing yourself. | 4/13/2007 12:54:00 AM
Alright,i'm still a lovey dovey person though my nic's a bit..hmm...well...negative.
But hey,reality check,the ugly truth is, this is always happening to unfortunate,hurt,heart-broken,wrecked,disappointed and numb ladies like me and a whole lot of others. Well,i guess my ladies will nod their heads frantically in consent when they've seen what i've typed.
Well,
women are the funniest creatures. They praticed self-love sooo much so that they betrayed it in the end. And there they are wanting to uphold priciples and policies of their own,which at the end of the day,they themselves will throw their own efforts down the sewage line. Funny isnt it. Sometimes, i can just sit down n start laughing at my own stupidity when i make statements like "i'll never ever let a man stomp on my head." or or "i will never allow man to ruin my life".....and apparently, i am dumb enough to get stomped on twice,fooled twice n fucked up twice...See,women lose themselves willingly when it comes to men,but of course, only to the ones they love. i awfullly admit that i was once or even twice, willing to be ordered around by those heartless creatures. And this is what i meant LOSING yourself, losing your heart,body n soul. N even more,your mind,to a man.
Not God or something.
ANYway~~~~like i've said, i'm still Erica Miss Dreamy. I do n always will,believe in L.O.V.E. To me it's a sacred place in my heart that comes with a boundary that's as high as the sky as wide as the world. ONLY the chosen one(woah!!sounds like LOTR....=o), will get to pass through and rewarded. And i think i have pretty high expectations now that i've been hurt awfully by two bastards. So,watch out guys. hahaha.....(as if guys will give a shit bout me...cheh.)
Well...to those who just lost someone they love or loved.Dont worry erica's phoneline is always open to all, 24/7, 365days. For those who just got a new found love,be it a man,a dog,a tamagochi pet dinosaur,or a new online game. Goodluck,n keep finding love.Love's everywhere,love's in the air,love's in your body,love's is in the things that u do and i love ya'll!!!!!
SOOO SPREAD THE LOVE BABES,JUST SPREAD THE LOVE!!(like peanut butter !!! or u wanna spread butter oso can or KAYA!!............err...................ok,nt funny ar.)
Rica.
it'spartytime,baby
